It was November 2011 and the other five musicians and me were heading to somewhere in Germany. We had to play that same night. After several days playing in different cities I finally began to feel like a real singer. During those long hours in the back seat of the van I drifted away in memories of my past life. I had changed so much since that January day of 2008 at the Hamburg airport when I arrived and stayed. Those memories inspired me to compose the song “Before the show”*. In this song, I describe my difficulties establishing myself as a singer in Germany and the separation of my family from Puerto Rico. The song lyrics can be found here. During the process of composition, I had a dream which led to the sketch for “My own invention”.
The dream: The boat was floating upstream through a tunnel. I could hear the water as the frogman in the boat was paddling through the dark. I wasn’t afraid although I could see several gigantic figures on the sides of the tunnel. We arrived at a gate at the left side of the tunnel and as it opened and I entered, I heard the music. There was a big room in which several people were celebrating. At the end of the room was an arch gate and through it I could see a bright garden but I wasn’t allowed to enter.
In “My own invention” I portrayed myself as a machine to produce music. This female machine reveals fearlessly her true face as a sign of sincerity. Through her flows the river of life in which her boat floats. One day, when the microphone comes down, so will her life as a singer and she will finally begin her journey to the afterlife.
*The song “Before The Show” will be published in my next album to be released in 2014.